A very personal and vulnerable song about grief and the process that I went through (and am still going through) these past two years, ever since my beautiful mother passed away.
lyrics
Bottled Up
It’s been a year since it snowed
and half of me is tied up in rags
Lately I’ve been having dreams
of breaking out of this mirage
You pushed me over the edge
but I am still hanging on
I brought a little souvenir
from the bottom of the well,
where nothing makes a sound
Well, if I stick with me
I might learn a thing or two
hell, still trying to figure it out
what it means to be me,
what it means to be you
Tame this monster, keeps haunting me
Bottled up with no room to breathe
Feed this hunger, it’s killing me
Bottled up, time to break free
It’s been a while since you left
and half of me is still a child
Caught up in fantasies, half baked truths
and pretty lies
It pushed me over the edge
but somehow I am hanging on
Never thought I’d be so brave
with all my insides splashed like roadkill
Tame this monster, keeps haunting me
Bottled up with no room to breathe
Feed this hunger, it’s killing me
Bottled up, time to break free
And the cars, they keep driving by
They won’t stop just because I need them to
You kept a little souvenir
From the bottom of my heart
where nothing makes a sound
credits
from lovelosslove,
released June 19, 2020
from lovelosslove, track released June 19, 2020
Lyrics: Ella Joy Meir
Music: Asher Kurtz & Ella Joy Meir
Production: Asher Kurtz
Vocal Production: Ella Joy Meir & Asher Kurtz
Mixing: Charlie Van-Kirk
Mastering: Joe LaPorta at Sterling Sounds
Recording Studio: Greylock Studios
Recording Engineer: Ben Talmi
Vocals: Ella Joy Meir
Guitars, Synths, Drum Programming: Asher Kurtz
Bass, Moog: Aaron Liao
Drums: Angelo Spampinato
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